Weight sensitivity.

What girl hasn't had a body image issue? What guy hasn't had a body image issue? We are visual animals lets face it. The more I dwell on it though, the more I feel too big. I had to measure my waist to find my size when I was ordering a dress from a catalog... The verdict: size 5/6. WHAT!?!? I want to know what happened to the petite me, the one that fit into little sizes, and didn't have love handles and big thighs and and a pouchy stomach and a rounded face.

Is it too much to ask to have a BMI lower than that of your guys friends? What girl wants to be bigger than a guy? What girl wants to crush a guy when he tries to pick her up or sits her in his lap? What girl wants to feel like a giant along side a guy?

The Victoria's Secret winter catalog came. Gisele is on the cover... All 5'7 and 120 pounds of her or is she 5'9, I can never remember. Thank you capitalist American for disillusionment.

The result? I feel like I ate too much today, and by too much I mean a piece of toast, a slice of carrot cake, an apple, and some corn bread. I shouldn't have touched the carrot cake, or the corn bread. I still have Chilean weight that needs to go. Acht, I hate how bad I am at self control and how much I love to eat.

Goal: Pre-Chile weight, pounds to go 5. 5 little pounds between discontent and happiness.

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