Grrrr..rrrrrrr..rrrr

Shaaa. Ok. So, I am frustrated to the extreme at the moment, and I can't stop it. I'm not being good enough to Fedya. I try to bake him things all the time, and be an adoring loving bird, but sometimes I fail miserably.

Why am I so terrible at this. I do adore him sooo much, I just have problems acting on it? I can be affectionate as a drugged kitten sometimes, and then horribly cold and distant other times. He needs something better than that.

Agh. Agh. Agh. and then there are my other feelings. The ones I try to kill dead. But the more I try to kill them, the more they try to kill me.

oi.

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