TRAGUS PIERCING ACHIEVED!

Party orphans say Heehh yeaaa!! That's right, today, I went into to Black cat tattoo piercing, trembling in anticipation and fear, feeling very un-hardcore compared to the men with multiple visible piercing and tattoos visible. The guy was really nice. He asked me what I knew about tragus piercings, and I babbled on about what I had read. My mother left the tattoo parlor completely, and he took me to a back room.

I figured they would use anesthesia, because all the accounts of tragus piercings i had read said they that's how its done. I asked about it, and he chuckled evilly and said, "We are too hard core for that here." that's when I started to get a little panicked. He told me to lie down on the table, and to take deep breathes. Then he put a clamp on my ear, and stuck in the needle. I was pleasantly surprised to find that it didn't hurt very much at all. He stuck in the ring, and then pulled the needle out. The worst part was when he closed up the ring.

It still burns a bit, but I can barely feel it. In all I'm super happy with how it turned out. >.< Then I was in Rite Aid buying stuff to clean it with, and this guy came up to me and asked if I had gotten a tattoo. I said no, and he said, "Ohhh, I was wondering because I just saw you in Black Cat, I got my tatt finished, im buying stuff to take care of it." and I laughed, showed him my piercing, and said, "yeaaah, Im getting stuff to clean my piercing too." It was nifty.

I'm diggin' it.

<3

Fizika is not Cool

Grrr. Fizika test today. Not cool. Rawr. I have to finish it tomorrow, its raping me.

And I've decided that Andrei is actually a cat. The way he stretches, the way he yawns, they way he he gives angry glares, the way he sounds like he is coughing up a hairball. Sexy.

I hate homecoming, and all the drama that comes with it.

I want my tragus piercing already!

<3

A few reasons not to hate this year...

I REALLY HATE SENIOR YEAR. I HAVE NO FRIENDS, AND I HAVE WAAAAY TOO MUCH HOMEWORK.. Grrrr. However, there are little things that make me smile, and get me though each day.

1. Listening to music on the drive to school that sets the mood. (The Islands, The Streets, Juanes, Regaeton, Man Man, etc.)
2. Taking a particular path to my locker each morning to see if I can snatch of glimpse of Andrei.
3. Socratic Seminars in English class
4. Andrei's clothes and haughty glances in English
5. Konstantin and I's notes back and froth in Gov.
6. Calling Yuri a man whore in physics
7. Observing the general chaos of highschool and feeling above it.
8. Disappearing

AND, I'm going to get a hardcore piercing, and its going to hurt as if a platypus were to jab me with one of its venomous claws, but what import that me? <--- Good English yo.
I need some moral support though on this piercing. I fear pain.

<3

Cuddly ewoks and Giant ugly lizards!

Today was just one big fiesta. Ufff. Football game, which I'm not going to. Starwars role play party that I'm also not going to (yes, I called Sir Ass, but I didn't put up with him, I said I had to go! jiji). Tomorrow is a super hero and villain themed birthday party. I'm excited, but sadly, mostly to see Matvei, as I assume he will wear a spiderman costume. Konstatin thinks I should try to seduce him anyway, but I think that's not very nice. The word of the year is NOT seduction.

Today, the best things that happened were Andrei's cat yawn in English class. It was darling and angsty. And then, when Mendive asked me to demonstrate how I gave the oath at youth court the night before and I replied, "It was like this, 'Tell the truth bitch'" It slipped out quite unexpectedly. Konstatin started laughing insanely hard, and Fedya wrote on a notebook page, "You are my hero" and held it up for me. I really really, didn't mean to say that, and I was horrified. Mendive said, "Well, Ill pretend not to hear that, because you were a good clerk."

Tonight, I want to go chill alone in a coffee shop. No football, and certainly no Star Wars role play for me. I just want to relax and read. *sigh*

<3

Jungalicious

What better way to get your sweet revenge than to decorate someone's locker with a crazy theme that will drive them nuts, right? That's exactly my plan for Matvei. His locker buddy, Sonya, wanted me to decorate their locker, so I agreed. At the same time she wanted a theme to piss of Matvei a little bit, and how could I resist that? So, the theme is "Jungalicious" and I'm going to write Jungalicious down the inside, as well as put up vines, and flowers, and maybe even a live rabid bat or two. The offer sparked more interests, so I'm also preparing a jungle themed locker with a twist for Vassily. This one is "Fern Gully" themed.

The highlight of my day was Andrei's pants. And his haughty glares at everyone during English. He is such a delightfully angsty boy. His pants were lovely today too. Grey slacks, which I need a pair of. They wouldn't have been that special if I hadn't been thinking all day long about where to get grey slacks. Then when someone was talking about the "Canadian Dream" instead of the "American Dream" he laughed louder than all the class, but as usual, in a fraction of a second, he had returned to his angsty self. Then someone said something to the effect of, "Triangle's are the worst shape because of their connotation" and a faint glimmer of something flashed across his lovely visage. I wonder if this backs up with Katinka and I's gaydars have picked up on. *sobs*... nooooo!!! It's too unfair.

I made grapejuice today out of the grapes in my backyard. It was scrumptious. I also studied physics... PROPS TO ME.

Tomorrow is the most boring block day ever... AP Econ, AP Gov, then AP Physics. Ufff.

<3

Matvei Delenda Est

The onda I sensed on Friday eve, was more than just perceived onda, it was actually there onda. Matvei and Tinka are now officially an item. *sobs* That makes me very unpleased. Konstantin wanted to know if I had any wicked good plots to win back Matvei and vanquish Tinka, but alas, I have not such a plan.

I'm sorry for drunk blogging last night, it was very irresponsible of me. I also called Vassily "my darling albatross", a poorly constructed allusion to "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner". What an unfortunate thing to say.

I also called my Texan exchange pal, and we swilled wine together over the phone, cursed at each other in broken Chilean Spanish, and generally had a fabulous time, cavorting verbally to and fro. I miss him. We partied it upppp bizatch!.

Today was actually a good day, just not socially. Socially I was all alone. But it was a good day because I wasn't so very hungover, and I woke up naturally at 4:30. Then I had a techno party by myself in my room.

Spanish was fabulous, because the French exchange student gave his presentation, speaking Spanish with his accent. It was kute. And he said "pingy-pongy" which was even more fabulous. And what's even better, is that he is so fucking stereotypically French. He likes escargot, and he likes going to techno parties. We could be great friends, if I didn't have morals and Would actually associate with a French person.

<3

drunk bloggin'

uve heard of drunk dialin. but have u herd of drunk bloggin'??? I jus wanna say that I love matvei. abut i just relaly want ti cuddle with whomever. IM so frekaing dizzy and i cantr think steaight. That fucking sucks. We can siwm with orca in american waters. jaja i love pBS. and its funny when u drink chilean wine,.

I love chiean wine.

I love matvei., I love KATINKA! she is my bestest fiend tonm the world.

I also love chilean wine.

jajajaj... this is gunny or funny as the case may be; i feel good uh i feel so god UH 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 !


yEAHHHHHH KUUUUNA
YEAAAAAH BAND PRESZZZY matvei!!! think i will find this funnt when i am somber. or sovbe.r wtf italicds hjjajaja no more italics.

I feel fuzzy
if matve ws here i wouldm kss ihm and i wouldnfel no shame, ubnless he wasnt drunk as well.

jaja ok Here is the truthl I lioe toung men. haaahhah okmg manatees!

jajaja I love hte danyhwahrols and i dont know what the fuckim lsitneing too.;
hahaha

BESITOS< Aleksandra tHE GREAT MASOCHIST VFDEL MUNDO!!

main hoo na

Ok, I almost did another really stupid survey thing, until I stopped myself, and decided to write something maybe a little rellevant to my life.

I've the Bollywood movie Main Hoon Na playing in the background, and it pretty much rocks my world. Its a chilly day, and my mum had the front door open, making me (wearing a skirt) quite cold.

I was invited by Vassily to a thing for Konstantin. Its dinner at Cafe Ole, followed by a movie. None of it sounds very amusing. I think I'll stay home and do homework. Thats how F-ing cool I am, So F-ing cool I censor myself.

*sigh* Im not diggin' it. Today is just not a day to go out and be happy.

<3

Матвеи, Курите это

Making pies wasn't nearly as fabulous as it should have been. Mostly because we didn't make pies. We made a really good, ooze, jiggly, half way cooked, artery clogging cake.

I was the first to arrive at Matvei's house. His fabulously on crack mother was there to greet me. I was frightened and amused all at the same time. Matvei was wearing an adorable collared shirt with a sweater vest. Only he can really pull off the sweater vest. We sat around and he explained to me how awesome the movie The Protector is, and how it's actually better than Snakes on a Plane. Apparently the best part was the Thai dude scorpion kicking some other guy. It was a little too exciting for me... But Matvei did make nice sound effects to explain. Then Tinka (not to be confused with Katinka who is indeed in Quebec) and Sonya came. We played some hardcore DDR. Or really, mostly watched Matvei play some hardcore DDR, I tried the beginners level and it was still too difficult for me. jaja. We started to make the cake, and 4 of us. And it was cool. Until Tinka and Sonya decided to go off to Sonya's house to make chocolate chip cookies, leaving Matvei and I to finish the cake, which turned out to be rather viscous, but yummy. You'd think it would be more exciting, being alone with Matvei and cooking, but it really wasn't.

Sonya and Tinka came back with cookies. Then we discussed Russian names. Matvei said that he really likes Russian names, and if he had a boy he would name him Mikhail, and he would name a girl Aleksandra (fancy that!!). I asked him what he thought of the name Matvei... jaja, and he said he hadn't heard it before but it was cool.

Then other people showed up and we all ate cake and talked on the deck, while Sonya and I basked in the sun (it was rather chilly today). We went inside later to watch some more DDR, when Matvei faced off against his sister. My jaw dropped. Vassily came. I'm pleased to say that I don't feel anymore onda in that sector.

Vassily, brought up the topic of Russian names again, trying to see if he could figure out who is Matvei. He failed, I saw through his plan, and everyone else was oblivious to it. Matvei said, "Hey we were talking about Russian names earlier!!"

Later we went to the BHS game. We left before halftime even, because we were tired of endless screaming, and horror. And the cheers like this "GPA GPA GPA.." or "We have a future..." mmm we love our football team. Matvei and I begged the others to leave. And finally we did so, but only after Matvei had saved me life from nearly falling off the bleachers in a riot, and protected me from Vassily's exuberance and cheering. I didn't mind doing the trucking cheer with Matvei however. Then we left for the Hyde Park Street Fair.

But ... I picked up onda that I didn't want to pick up: onda between Matvei and Tinka.
All night I would hear things like, "I'm going to go look for Tinka", "Go ask Tinka if she wants to leave" , "Where did Tinka go?"... Ufffff. The only time I got Matvei onda was when I had a plate of loaded fries, nothing attracts Matvei like fried foods or meat. I did a very scientific and systematic experiment, and it fully proved my point. Tinka disappears for 3 seconds, Matvei goes running to the rescue. I disappear for 30 minutes, and no one went a lookin'. Oh well. I wont lie, I'm disappointed. It was Matvei or nothing this year.

Matvei did however talk about "The Dark Times", the name of reference for a particularly bad era of band drama. Including but not limited to Matvei and Fiona's brief dating, Sir.Ass and that crazy girls thing, and Fiona telling everyone I hated her and told her to go to Timberline.

I'm still disappointed. :(

Last person survey
1. You hung out with? My physics class!!! Natasha, Yuri, and Vassily!
2. Rode in a car with? mmm My mum!
3. Went to the movies with? My mum
4. You went to the mall with? My mum (Im starting to sound like a dork, I only chill with my mum)
6. You talked on the phone to? My mum! oh the patheticness of it all!
7. Made you laugh? Myself!

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?
2. Be serious or be funny? Im already funny... I wanna be serious now.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? I don't much care for milk, but organic skim if any.
4. Die in a fire or drown? I want to burn out not fade away. Does that answer the question?
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? umm my parents
1. Who is your crush?Oh gosh.. Im only allowed to list one?
2. Have you ever stole from your bestest friend? No?
3. Does anyone like you? Probably. Im a charismatic hottie.

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.
1. Sun or moon? moooooon
2. winter or fall? Fall, the clothes are the best!
3. left or right? righty!
4.10 aquaintances or 2 best friends? 2 best friends, easily.
5. Sunny or rainy? Rain... Nekked
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla!

A B O U T . Y O U.
1. What time is it? 7:12
2.first name? Aleksandra, Nickname:Sasha
3. What do you want to do? Be a diplomat!
4. Where do you wanna live? Anywhere but here!
5. How many kids do you want? 0
6. You want to get married? ... probably not
8. Are you double jointed? nah
10. Can you cross your eyes? yes
11. Do you make your bed daily? errrr. :(

R A N D O M.
1. Which shoe goes on first? right (I just checked)
2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone? Many a time
3. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? cut
4. Have you ever eaten Spam? I think that goes against every moral I have.
5. Favorite ice cream? Ben and Jerry's coffee heath bar crunch.
6. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? only granola
7. Do you cook? Im learning, I gotta seduce men somehow.
8. current mood? anxious as fuck

IN . THE. LAST. 48 HOURS. HAVE. YOU.
1. Bought something: 2 tops, a hobo jacket, and a pair of shoes
2. Sang? To my self, very poorly
3. Been hugged: By my mum and by Konstantine
4. Felt stupid: Irrr. Physics class... yeah
5.Missed somone: I suppose
6. Danced Crazy: When am I not dancing crazy?
7. Gotten your hair cut? nah
8. Cried: Yes!
9. Lied: probably
10. been kissed by someone not related to you: nope... its been a good.. 2.5 months.

S T U F F .
1. Ever been searched by the cops? nah
2. When's the last time you've been sledding? long time a go
3. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? cuddling with others on cold days is nice... or casual sleeping together. None of that akward squished together mierda.
4. Do you believe in ghosts?? Nah
5. Do you consider yourself creative? Hell Na bizatchle..

That was a waste of time... BUt I feel anxious. I thought It WouLd HelP. BuT OmG I"vE GonE CrrrrRAzY!!!

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Anxious! Matvei the Masochist!

Oh my!

Im so very anxious right now and I can't explain it. I feel all nervous and jittery, charged with energy and ready to bolt at the first sign of danger.

Matvei isn't everything he is cracked up to be. I was horrified to find out from Konstantine that has been in a relationship as recently as a few weeks ago. Oh my! It certinally takes off a shade of innocence. and in all honestly, Im not sure i want to go make pie tomorrow. >.<

Vassily keeps pressing to know who Matvei is. Perhaps Matvei is just a figment of my imagination.

I did find someone with the nicest hair in the world. It's like Sir.Ass's hair on meth. It longish, and completely and evenly flipped out, and has a lovely sheen. I said, "You have lovely hair" and he said "Thank you, would you like to touch it?" As the class was ending he waited for me to leave so I could stroke his lovely hair. Wow.

Oh, something that gives me joy is watching how the people at BHS interact with each other. It makes me smile. Something about their stupidity is so pleasing to my senses! I just love sittnig quitely and watching everyone converse. All the facial expressions and drama.

And.. Feyodor and i traded cd's, I gave him a copy of Katinka's emo cd, and he gave me a cd of fucked up music, but I dig. It has Barbie girl in german at the end. It makes me think of crack. Actually, the whole cd would be a good one to experience with UNcLe V!!

That was my day. Shoot me, UP WITH HEROIN OF COURSE!!!! Oh hardy har!

<3

Boysenberry Pie

Today I felt inexplicably happy! Nothing entirely exciting happened, but all the same. Today I went out to lunch with Sonya, Matvei, and Co. Matvei offered me a sip of his mocha. He said, "Do you want a sip of my iced mocha? You did after all share lots of coffee with me at Merrit's." So I had a sip. It was yummy, I wish I had gotten something, but I had brought my lunch and thus was eating it while everyone else got their food and drinks at the coffee shop.

Then we went back to class, and that's when I started to feel happy. I think it happened because I saw Fedya's shirt, which just happened to be on Cat and Girl, which made me smile and think of Katinka. He is an odd boy though that Fedya. Today he said randomly, "Im afraid of marsupial and fast animals" in fact, Im afraid of all mammals!" Then he darted away from me. errrr?? I guess if it works for Katinka, I should keep my mouth shut.

Then, we all decided we should have a party. Sonya offered her house and Matvei offered his. It was decided that a party needs cake. Matvei offered to make a cake, Tinka said she would make one too. I wanted to make something, but not a cake, so I asked if I could make a pie. Matvei said he wanted to make a pie with me, so that I should come over before hand to make a pie with him. Sonya said she wanted to come make a pie too. Naturally, it was a passing comment. But later, he said again that I better come over, and we could get boysenberries from the Co-of to make a delicious boysenberry pie. And by making pie, I hope he means watching TV, and we all know what that implies!!! *fingers crossed*

Then as we were all walking up the stairs to our next classes, Seamus approached me. It went something like this:

Seamus: Hey Aleksandra
Me: errr. Hey Seamus
S: How have you been, I haven't see you.
Me: I've bee incredibly happy for no reason in particular
S: yeah, I've been looking for you.
Me:v(disinterested tone)Oh? I've been busy.

*Then I sprinted up the stairs as fast as I could*
S: (yelling up the stairs) I'll call you tonight!!!

****
Matvei: (at the top of the stairs to me) Sasha, you realize that Seamus said he would call you tonight.
Me: Yesss.... And I have a feeling I won't be home tonight for that exact reason.
Matvei and friend: *laughing*
Matvei: You two aren't still going out are you?
Me: Heavens no!
Matvei: Does he think you are?
Me:He shouldn't... I've made it clear
Matvei: Oh ok, Have fun in your class
Me: Bye

Seamus got dissed, I completely pretended not to hear him as he said he would call.
And most of all, I'm glad Matvei saw it go down.

Now I'm speaking with Vassily online. I'm not sure I like him overly much. mmmm

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Musings.

Today was a decent day. I was elected to be the treasurer of the Spanish Club, which is really quite fabulous. It means I have now clinched that leadership position that will get me into those selective schools!. Yessss.
I realized that my physics teacher looks exactly like the mum of a horrible mean, Chilean girl. They have the same facial expressions. IT makes me want to cry.
I also, would like to mention that I was offended when Vassily said that I would be in Hufflepuff, placing himself in Ravenclaw. I would definitely be a Slytherin or a Gryffindor, none of that Hufflepuff shit for me.


But most importantly, Today was "dress for success" day, a day invented by Senior boys that takes place every other Tuesday. It entails a group of senior boys to wear ties. Lovely Matvei went beyond just a tie ( as is expected). He was wearing a pin strip suit, with a pink tie. Looking very sharp, and delicious, which leads me to my next point.

Last night I dreamt implied sex with Matvei. I dreamed that we were in a castle, and completely out of his character he said, "It's now or never". Then it went misty, and faded into the next part of the dream, which consisted in me crying to Katinka that I had just had unprotected sex with Matvei, and thought I might be pregnant. Katinka said we must go get the morning after pill!!! So we went on a frantic search. We finally found one, and I took it. Then we went back to the castle and hung out with Sir. Ass. What an odd dream. But it again shows the cute little boys are clearly being suppressed by my ego, and its coming out in my dreams.

I also had an odd conversation with lovely Fedya today. Again, we talked about homeless people. This time, about keeping meat in trench coats. I wonder about that poor child sometime.

Thats all for today, oh that, and I got 100% on the Gov. test.!!!

<3

Oh no..!

So... I'm into my 3rd week of school.

I went to toga, and got smashed between lots of sweaty bodies. However, as I fortunately don't go to Jr. High, most everyone was wearing deodorant. Ahhh, yesss, people learn eventually Amen.

I danced a rather off Mexican waltz (to hip hop music) with Vassily, and a barnyard dance with Fyodor. Dancing can be fun, but only with friends. Not with awkward people.

Later we all went to Merritt's. A giant pitcher of ice water was spilled on me, and I was less than pleased. I had to change into Vassily's green sweatshirt. Then i Got rather overheated, so I sat around in a tank top, and short soccer shorts, hopefully not looking very slutty (when you are seducing intelligent guys, you musn't look slutty). Dearest Matvei and I had a fun conversation as he stole sips of my coffee. He gave me a most seductive bite of ice cream off his spoon.

Later we went to someone's house to read Cosmopolitan aloud. The boys get really uncomfortable. I was sitting between Matvei and Vassily, while watching Fyodor's horrified expression from across the room.

Little boys are soooo cute. I think my Id is attracted to their innocence. (oh, and by little , I mean, my age, just with little boy face... IM NOT A PEDOFILE)

All in all, it was a better night than Voltaire could have possibly offered me!!

<3 Maren

A new low: High School

So after a week of highschool, I'm ready to throw in the towel. I never bring lunch. Instead I sit alone in the library and read whatever random book catches my eye. I've read some memoirs of Isabel Allende, and a book of Gandhi quotes. I suppose its good to expand like that, but I'm so damn lonely.
I have a fucking essay to write today... I really was supposed to start on it during summer vacation, but it looks like nothing has changed as far as procrastination goes.

On top of it all, I miss Chile and Felipe so damn much!!! The other day I went to Chilean families house, to give them a bottle of Chilean wine which I had gotten for them. Only the grandmother was in, but just the few minutes I spoke with her in Chilean Spanish, were some of the best I've had in a long time. I was able to use words like pololo, cahcai, altiro, and choclo. My dad, who although he speaks Spanish, didn't understand much of our conversation.

BUT... Last night I saw the movie Little Miss Sunshine, which was really one of the funniest most fabulous movies I've ever seen, and They talk about Proust, and how he said something to the effect of: the worst years of his life were the ones he valued the most, because they made him who he was. So the uncle says to his nephew, in that case, if you slept until you were 18, you'd miss highschool, and you'd miss all those years of valuable suffering, because highschool years, are the worst possible ones, full of miserbaleness. :) Oh yes, thank you Little Miss Sunshine for putting a another perspective on my life.

That's it for now.